I didn't get alot of time to say goodbye... I was given 9 days. 

The immediate shock and sadness had limited my ability to share and articulate the many things I admire about you and all the feelings I've held inside for you as a Father. 

Five months later I've had some time to reflect and its not comprehensive, but time has given me a stronger love and ability to appreciate how much positivity you brought into my life.

You showed me how to be loyal, how to believe in myself, how to work hard, how not to complain, how to enjoy life, how to share and most importantly how to BE PRESENT as a Father. You were my best friend.... you were a legend. You chose to be with me and my family and devoted ALL your attention, time and energy to us. Im so grateful that you made that decision.

I will always remember our road trips, our laughs, working tradeshows, working markets, the many late nights making shave cream and hanging out at backyard bonfires. 

I remember the countless times you cut my lawn, split firewood and how you always made it a point to shovel my driveway and front yard. You gave up your life and recreational enjoyment of walleye fishing in Northern Ontario to be closer to me, my wife and your grand sons. 

You gave it ALL up to be PRESENT in my life and you chose to do that with your free will and love. For that devotion and commitment I will always love you forever.   

In a weird farewell and goodbye my last laugh and conversation with you, was bathing and shaving you in the palliative care unit. It was a profound experience and something I will always remember for the rest of my life. You had swagger until your last day. 

I want to emulate your charisma, devotion and work ethic with my own sons. Thank you for showing me how to be a great Father. I miss you so damn much.. each and every day.